And Maldita was right…
The most consistently inconsistent person you’ll meet
After writing and saying that I’ll blog everyday, here I am blogging after almost a week of not blogging. lol! And Maldita (the part of my brain that’s snarky, sassy and well all around bitch) was right, I couldnt keep the daily blog going.
It started off with my COVID shot. At first I was feeling ok and then suddenly I felt ill and my joints were aching and had a headache. And it was downhill from there. I felt quesy and just felt sick. My temp was up and down for awhile . So understandably I couldn’t log in and write. But after it was such a busy week for me that I just didnt have time to write anything down.
My 2nd brother started his business so in the mornings from 630–830am I mostly create the social media post for the day. So no time in the morning and in the evenings I have been working long hours. I know these are all excuses because for real I am and have never been a consistent person. I always say I will do something and its a miracle if I really end up doing it. One day tasks are fine but consistent everyday for one whole month is such an endeavor for me. I know that I need to change this, cause being consistent is what will make anything work.
Even in my dieting, I have stopped. I am now eating everything that I want but just keeping to a three hour rule…where I dont eat anything 3 hours before I go to bed (which by the way yesterday I broke — had dinner at a friend’s house and of course with talking and telling stories it took awhile to get through the meal).
The pattern that I need to break is being inconsistent..but the funny thing is, thats the only thing that has been a constant with me…breaking my rules. Which I know is not a good thing cause being a depressive, I need some routines in my life so I dont get back to my “dark days”. But I dont really know where to start to break this inconsistency.
I have to admit though I havent really like really tried to be consistent about anything in my life. This is also the reason why I’m fat and well maybe psychologically challenged. I dont know how consistent people do it. I dont know how they find the energy to be consistent. Even when I was small I didnt stick to whatever I was doing for a long time. I would take ballet lessons or join the church choir, but as soon as something happens, I give up and move on to the next thing.
Not sure if I’ll be able to break this habit but I’ll see if I can try to at least go on my rowing machine everyday this coming week.
Crossing fingers.
till next time, PEACE!
